Friday

Ruin It


I'm annoyed.
Well, more importantly I'm angry.
Not at anyone though - just myself. More at my body for that matter.
For waking me up at SIX SODDIN' AM!!!! 6.45 to be exact. And now I can't fall back asleep, and its irritating me because I don't need to be up this early. I went to bed around 2.30am, which is normal-ish for me, and usually I wake up around 11-ish.
Not today. Ooooohhhh no.
Grrrrr.
Its just...ARGH!!!!
I'm going to be tired around this time tonight - and I'll be at work.
Not to sure whats causing it either. Probably because I'm hungry. I missed out on eating last night because my step-dad's kids were there, and making food would be annoying and I'd feel like I was getting in the way. Not that there's much in that is classifiable as food anyway. Since I'm up this bloody early I'm gonna go out and buy myself some food to eat.
The main problem though, is the fact I'm not really at home anymore. I'm more often visiting Matt which is much better than being home. I just want to curl up with him, or just generally be where he is.
[ partingissuchsweetsorrow ]
I'm also annoyed that the theme for the next Devil's Night is so useless, as if they put no thought into doing something decent. Yeah 'Post Apocalypse' is interesting - for film, TV and books. Costume-wise its just not practically affordable. Unless your closet is kitted out with cyber goth/punk clothing to begin with.
I just don't have that kind of money.
I'm loosing inspiration for all my stuff too. Art and writing. I get good ideas now and again, but I'm usually in a situation that results in me being unable to pin the ideas down. When I get chance to really do anything, my brain is really good at dying on me. I feel bad for leaving all my lovely fellow roleplayers hanging all the time with things left unfinished.
I'd give it up, if I didn't love it so much.
Well, that's my rant for now xP

Saturday

"My bike has a bell -dingding-"


I should really be getting ready for work rather than sitting here writing, but that place is draining me beyond anything I could imagine.
Sometimes I have no problems with working there, but its the 'getting there' part that annoys me the most I think. I'm restricted to the useless excuse of a bus service, and the price of a ticket just keeps going up and up. I should just hand over my wage packet for just getting to work one day x(
I also dislike it when I've no one interesting to talk to. I don't have a problem with any of the staff (other than the dude Roger, who seems to think I want to talk to him when I have headphones on and my nose in a book) but there are some that are just more fun to work with than others. If I'm stuck with un-interesting staff, then my day drags and makes me really not want to be there for my next shift.
Not to mention the immensly long hour shifts we have to pull for soddin' minimum wage xP
Enough rambling, I'm going to go and get dressed.
I want to roleplay Nat xD
or Ethan x33